I was asked awhile ago by someone if I regretted everything that has happened. I said no. I don’t regret anything, especially any relationship, no matter how badly it may have ended. What we learn from those relationships is what makes it all worth while. We learn how to laugh, and how to have a true smile. One of those smiles you only get when you know you’re holding one of the most important people in the world, at least they are to you. You learn how to fall in love, and what love really means. There is no greater feeling in the world than being in love. It’s like every little piece of your life finally fits perfectly, and you realize what you were missing all those years, even though you never realized it. The thing about love is you know when you’re in love. No one is going to tell you, and you’re not going to question it or wonder if you really are. It’s not a maybe thing; it’s definite. You learn how to trust someone with your heart, though you know they’ll probably end up breaking it. But it’s the heartbreaks that we learn the most from. We learn that if you truly love someone, sometimes you have to let them go, even though they were your whole world, even if it was for just a short while. You learn that it is impossible to forget what you had, even years later. There’s something always in the back of your mind, especially with your first true love. You find yourself sub-consciously comparing everyone you’re with to that person that you fell for first. But the most important lesson you learn from relationships is how to forgive. This is also one of the hardest lessons, because you have every excuse in the world to never talk to them, or forgive them. You gave them your whole heart, and they handed it back in pieces, without glue to fix it. But the thing is, it will stay broken until you learn how to forgive them. You never really heal and move on unless you forgive them, and until you can, you will blame future loves for things that the last person did. So this is why I never regret anything I’ve done, or any relationship I’ve had. I would never trade the months of indescribable happiness for anything, even knowing the heartache that ended those blissful months. Because if you’ve never had a broken heart, then you can never really know what it’s like to be so in love, that nothing else in the world matters. And it is totally worth it.
